::takes a bulimic to look this good::

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 18:14:31 GMT

i dunno i really havent journaled in along time but a lot of shit has gown down...
never got to make my bologna submarine...(cris is gone)
someone close overdosed...
the fiance is still in florida!
i'm a workaholic...i'm addicted to workahol...
i'm really bored...
happy holidays

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 13:51:15 GMT

raul and i arent talking surprise surprise... what did i do... nothin he just used me like everyone else does=/. why wont jason come home... i'm so tired and lonely....

Fry me up some bacon and i'll vomit.....

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 23:51:09 GMT

2 hookers and an eightball!!!!!! u can never get sick of that tunage or shut me up.....OH BOY!!!!....so people always show up extremely late to my house or not at all....i think i'm jinxed or there might be a devils curse....ummmm saturated fat....driedle land....mr. big nose....HOLLA AT YOUR JEW GIRL!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 13:18:41 GMT

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 16:34:06 GMT

oh....by.....the......way....u....r....gayer....than.....AIDS......

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 16:31:26 GMT

dana works with me now.... its been like three weeks since jason and i went on break but now i think we might get back together... but anyone who knows what happened knows that the duke of candy apples is my name and i foumnd a hott mexican... i went shopping yesterday ansd got a new belt.... i want to go shopping again today i mean j mack has the cash... just jokin who would use that bitches dough?

and it was true feelings of passion

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 20:01:40 GMT

I was feeling sad and lonely
and my heart was torn in two
I went out to see a show
that's the night that I met you

you're so dreamy, you're so sweet
swept completely off my feet
you duct-taped my heart back together
i think that this could last
I know that this will last forever
you duct-taped my heart back together

the club was packed, the band was loud
i held my breath as you came near
you seemed to have something to say
i leaned in close so i could hear
a roll of duct tape in your hand
"we have a show next saturday"
you hung a flyer on the wall
"will you come and see us play?"

you're so dreamy, you're so sweet
swept completely off my feet
you duct-taped my heart back together
i think that this could last
I hope that this will last
I know that this will last forever
you duct-taped my heart back together
I know that this will last forever

we were walking in the rain
and a hole was in my shoe
you pulled some duct tape from your bag
patched it up as good as new
"that should keep you dry" you told me
looking shyly in my eyes
and our hands were almost touching
that first kiss was a surprise

you're so dreamy, you're so sweet
swept completely off my feet
you duct-taped my heart back together
i think that this could last
I hope that this will last
I know that this will last forever
you duct-taped my heart back together
I know that this will last forever

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 16:54:40 GMT

makin me hella hella randy and shit

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 16:09:30 GMT

yea massive UTI.... go back to work today... that kinda blows...my cock...and sucks on my balls.....

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 14:04:31 GMT

my first day of work at abercrombie was yesterday.... it was great.... i really do enjoy doing certain things....i work the rest of the week to get those big ass bills!!! hi holla bitchez!!!

and i tripped today in front of E

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 22:27:52 GMT

so i fell in front of Aaron,,, and it was so hott...had mad b.o.!!! whats that you say...me and aaron have set plans tomoroo for sushi...hes like brian cept funnier....jason was supposed to call at five...i think i'll take a nap...who knows me and the dude might want to have fun later... lets watch the big lebawski...

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 16:01:37 GMT

i feel so out of context in this gaudy appartment complex.......I sleep alone tonight... and everyother night as welll... I'm drinking diet coke and yesterday i hung out with Megan and went grocery shopping....it was refreshingly fun compared to my new found normalacy in life...aaron graves finally asked me to hang out this week....i thought about it, i mean really thought about whether things between jason and i were worth fighting for.... and the answer is of course...i could never throw anything that we worked for to the wind... plus i'm not like jason, when i have an impulse i think it through....contemplate the results and come to a conclusion that everything will be okay if i stay on task....this is so stupid.... i guess i'm just really going crazy being here alone.....i mean i still have a great social life... i run around with more people now than i have ever before for the past year.....
Okay here are my goals for the year....
1. Build a submarine....one that might not sail to the ocean's floor, but a pretty good one...not made of bologna....
2. develop the beer diet more intensively, yeah yeah there are only like two more bugs that need to be worked out of that one....
3. GO 2 arizona to apprentice!!!
4. Get my abercrombie sweater with fur...
5. Meet new hott people....
6. Go camping!!!

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 23:54:16 GMT

i got engaged bitches

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 15:07:09 GMT

class started jason left i'm cold

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 13:29:23 GMT

well school starts on monday... thats also the day jason leaves... sad isnt it... as much as i wont miss the fighting or the constant reminder of betrayal...i'll miss my best friend....and i love him with all my heart...

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 16:32:53 GMT

do i look like a slut....uhuh shutup!
yesterday we went thrifting in the city... it was great for the most part and i really do think that mat and danny are on of the best pairs i have ever seen....i got my dirty sanchez shirt with webangin! on the back....i guess thats how i spell the word copyright patent pending bitches....laura is taking mo jason and me to medieval times for our college send off.... i guess in a week everything will be different but for now its okay....

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 15:39:33 GMT

i am free as a bird now... some really bad things happened to me over the weekend thats why i've been out of touch... sry everyone....xpescially u krista cuz i was going to go down to you on sunday... but u ever wnder why someone wouldnt fix something they have broken.... i got broken jason hasnt fixed me...its beyond megan or natalie or his lies about being a dj or a drinker... its about me not wanting to live anymore....i know i'm not his blonde hair blue eyed woman but i'm supposed to feel like i'm okay looking... never will.... i'm worthless....i'm as numb as a heart that has stopped beating..and i cant wait for death to come

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 14:44:21 GMT

Well, I've got to run to keep from hidin',
And I'm bound to keep on ridin'.
And I've got one more silver dollar,
But I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no,
Not gonna let 'em catch the Midnight Rider.

And I don't own the clothes I'm wearing,
And the road goes on forever,
And I've got one more silver dollar,
But I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the Midnight Rider.

And I've gone by the point of caring,
Some old bed I'll soon be sharing,
And I've got one more silver dollar,

But I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the Midnight Rider.

No, I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the Midnight Rider.

No, I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the Midnight Rider.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 13:31:23 GMT

tattoo is hott.... shark bait....devils rejects was raw... another movie where Sherry moon plays an obnoxious vixen that is still able to please...it was good...tootie mother fucking fruitie!!!

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 16:04:50 GMT

ummmm....I love cupcakes....yea tattoo on tuesday....shark bait hoohahaha

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 13:32:15 GMT

i want to say i'm better than this... i'm not waiting four years....i hate you and you're stupid attitude...i wish i was dead... but no that would be too easy for you.... never once did you think bout me....not when you were giving your heart away or when you were lieing through your teeth....i was always here... hurting...dieing...i am numb

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 17:20:10 GMT

Your full name: Ruth ann Schaefer

Age: 18

Height: 5'3

Natural hair colour: mouse brown

Eye colour: green

Number of siblings: only mother fin kid in my family

Glasses/contacts?: glasses... my new burberry ones are soon to come

Piercings: eyebrow, nose, bellybutton, ears

Tattoos: sugar magnolia

Braces?: never
FAVOURITE

Colour: grrrrreeeen

Band: dandy warhols... or maybe the postal service

Song: bohemian like you

Stuffed animal: fuzzy the bear....

Video game: halo bitches or maybe the x men game...

TV show: ummm i guess the simple life... but now that nicole richie is gone i dunno

Movie: closer....or willy wonka,,,

Book: Harry Potter and the half blood prince

Food: i hate food now

Game on a cell phone: ms. pac man

Flower: magnolia or white oleander....hey you know you can die from those danny

Scent: vanilla

Animal: penguin

Comic book: x men or ultimate x men

Cereal: boo berry

HAVE YOU EVER

Snuck out of the house?: yes all of the time... nope i never really think i had to sneak out ... my parents just let me....

Cried to get out of trouble?: yeah with the cop bout a month ago... the fact that i cried with big boobs must have made him sympathetic

Gotten lost in your city?: nope...

Seen a shooting star?: nope always wanted to so i could make a wish that might come true

Been to any other countries besides the united states?: nope but i'm saving my money to go to ireland....oh wait i have been to canada and mexico but welll.....

Had a serious surgery?: nope bout to get my uterus removed though

Stolen something important to someone else?: coke from cris but we are still friends

Solved a rubiks cube?: nope i dont have time to put into a useless cause like that....

Gone out in public in your pajamas?: yes and i looked bad too....

Cried over a girl?: yea when i lost a friend

Cried over a boy?: when do i not cry about my boyfriend he does everything wrong...

Kissed a random stranger?: yes gay pride parade

Hugged a random stranger?: gay pride

Been in a fist fight?: yes and i used vasoline to rub down my face with and i brought my brass nuckles

Been arrested?: never....well that one time... yeah i guess once....

Done drugs?: okay....need i say more

Had alcohol?: yes i was an alcoholic...but i was a real one... i didnt lie about it to seem cooler

Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: yeah cris made it happen ... it hurt...

Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: yeah with cris at harbor point.... we were very mischevious children...

Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: nope... but i never go to school... whats the fricken point... i hate people and i hate solid learning enviroments....

Swore at your parents?: udo you gay donkey fucker loose vagina!!

Been to warped tour?: nope

Kicked a guy where it hurts?:yea several times... green off the drop kick testes!

Been in love?: once....and lemme tell you its the most rewarding pain you can ever put yourself through...

Been close to love?: yeah with several other people... like my lovers!

Been to a casino?: yeah hell yeah we have a home in vegas baby

Ran over an animal and killed it?: yes a goose... funny story that is/..

Broken a bone?: yeah my nose several times over

Gotten stitches?: nope

Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:nope are you crazy negro!

Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: NOPE I GET HORNY WITH DAIRY

Made homemade muffins?: hehehe nope i aint no betty crocker nigg!

Bitten someone?: nope my teeth would come off if i did something that stupid

Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: fuck yeah... the best time i ever had in my sorry life was in disney world

More than 5 times?: yeah bout 12

Been to niagra falls?: nope

Burped in someones face?: yeah fuuuuucccckkk yooouuuuu and coddddddy wyyaaattt

Gotten the chicken pox?: yes i have bubbley lil buggers
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU

Brushed your teeth: this morning

Went to the bathroom: in my panrs

Saw a movie in theaters: saturday

Read a book: this morning

Had a snow day: ummm never

Had a party: ummmm well not anymore i kinda just spend time with jason

Had a slumber party: ummmm maybe on wait oh wait a month ago with mo

Made fun of someone: everyday when i see udo

Tripped in front of someone: umm yesterday but i had to throw up so it doesnt count....

Went to the grocery store: yesterday....

Got sick: today food poisoning isnt that a triffling whore

Cursed:
PICK ONE

Fruit/vegetables: veggies

Black/white: white

Lights on/lights off: off

TV/movie: movie

Car/truck: donkey

Body spray/lotion: spray

Cash/check: cash

Pillows/blankets: blankets

Headache/stomach ache: headache

Paint/charcoal: paint

Chinese food/mexican food: china man

Summer/winter: winter

Snow/rain: snow

Fog/misty: misty

Rock/rap: neither

Meat/vegetarian: vegetarian

Boy/girl: girl

Chocolate/vanilla: vanilla

Sprinkles/icing: sprinkles

Cake/pie: pie

French toast/french fries: fries

Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries

Ocean/swimming pool: ocean

Hugs/kisses: both

Cookies/muffins: cookies.... muffins... who would say muffins

p33n/bewbz: what?

Wallet/pocket: pocket

Window/door: window

Emo/goth: neither

Pink/purple: pink

Cat/dog: cat

Long sleeve/short sleeve: long sleeve

Pants/shorts: pants

Winter break/spring break:winter break

Spring/autumn: autumn

Clouds/clear sky: clouds

Moon/mars: moon
FRIENDSHIP

How many friends do you have?: a lot i guess or actually true friends i hacve bout 4

What are their names?: jason... megan... krista... lo ... mo... cris ... danny

Do you have a best friend?: yea jason

Have you ever liked one of your friends?:yeah i think my boyfriend is hott and then theres lo

Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:i hang out with more guys than girls

Have you ever lost a friend?:several actually it happens over time and with drugs

Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:ummm yeah!

Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?: malarky!

Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?: yes all of them really cept danny megan and krista

Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?: i asked lo to prom and i think i'm a pretty nice person....

Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?: lo took me to prom

Do you miss any of your old friends?: yea stacey....

What friend have you known the longest?: ummm prbly lo

Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?: yes

If so, what is it?: nevermind this crap...

How often do you spend time with your friends?:with jason, everyday

Do any of your friends drive?: yes all of them cept mo

Has a friend of yours ever died?: yes

Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:me and mo have done several dumb things thats why shes my wifey

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 13:34:25 GMT

i got food poisoning and i had to go to the emergency room....it was awkward.... i went with someone who shall not be named due to the agitation he insinuates apon people....i got mysel;f to throw up most of my foos but i guess there was one piece of rotting lobster tail stuck in my stomach....ironic isnt it... the first time i eat in months i eat at the melting pot....then i get sick and die...he who must not be named is sleeping soundly but has to wake up in an hour to get down to orland for work..he makes me love him more and more each day....dinner with my mother and jason was awesome...jason is amazing

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 14:47:14 GMT

and i think love is real......come down now... they'll say

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 14:46:03 GMT

damn i cant remember feeling this damn good.... and when i think bout it i say....

*::*takes a bulimic to look this good*::*

Fry me up some bacon and i'll vomit.....

**and it was true feelings of passion**

and i tripped today in front of E

::takes a bulimic to look this good::

and it was true feelings of passion